by Cirie » Tue Nov 19, 2013 10:14:48 pm
Jeff, I'm going to let you speak-- But, I just wanted to say one thing! I will be voting to keep Gina and Rudy tonight. I hope they can honor their agreements as well.
I know I’m battling a huge perception problem right now! I think a lot of players are underestimating my abilities due to my poor performance at the beginning. (I’m sure many people were planning to bring me to the end as a goat.) However, I’ve turned my game around and nobody has paid attention! I think most people are relying on an antiquated narrative that doesn’t really fit how I’m actually playing this game. Nobody is stopping to reassess my game play under new circumstances.
So many players underestimated me to their detriment. I think my position in this game is so interesting and unique. I can’t think of an analogous player from the actual show. Nearly everyone in this series wanted to take me to the end, because they regarded me as a potential goat. But, in the process of locking down final three commitments, they conceded so much power to me. Instead of saying, “I want you to be in my final three and this is what we’re going to do,” everyone has been saying, “I want you in my final three. What do you want to do?” This has constantly put me in the swing vote position. Can I truly be the goat if I’ve helped to dictate the game’s movement?
John accused me of being “brainwashed” when I was working with Teresa and Naonka. Teresa and Naonka accused me of the exact same thing when I started working with other players. In reality, I’m a self-interested, rational player who is making the best possible decisions for my own game. I’m upset that people are insulting my intelligence by portraying me as a weak, feeble-minded player. I’m not used to that all-- Trust me, I’m not an idiot!
I’m actually surprised that so many of my competitors think that my game decisions are a mystery. They act perplexed by the ways that I've voted in this game. I think they’re pretty straightforward to anyone paying actually attention. When I was almost eliminated from this game, I formed two new objectives: 1. Align with the other exiles 2. Eliminate my former Turukawa tribe mates. I think I’ve been making great strides on both objectives. Rudy, Gina, and I are in the final five. And Paloma is the last original Turukawa tribe mate.
I personally believe that the jury will have a negative perception towards the exiles. They will think that we’re less deserving of the win, because we have already been voted out of this game. That’s not a fair perception, but it’s out there—The only way to combat that perception is for three of the four exiles to be the final three. Everyone else is fair target for me. Brenda, Gina, and I have been working together since the Final 20. Rudy joined us during the merge. And it's in our rational, best interests to continue working together.
I mean no disrespect to our other competitors. I adore them. But, there's no reason to hide any of this now.